I waited and waited, I wasn’t quite sure what I was waiting for, but it was something. So I waited some more.
So feeling a little lost I took one of the best bits of advice I have ever heard – just keep putting one foot in front of the other. So I did. I didn’t see anything hugely amazing happen like a bolt of light out of the blue but I kept doing it, putting one foot in front of the other and some days were slower than others. No bells, no whistles, no clap of thunder or flash of lightening, no official announcements or awards letting me know that I had made it, that I had done it, that I had achieved "it" .........and I still waited for that moment when I would know I was doing okay which never came.
What I wanted out of life is something I have never seen before, something I had never experienced – I desired to be me and live my life and not someone else’s. I had no idea how to do that and what that even looked like. It was weird and wonderful, that I did know.
This writing was a suggestion put to me in taking a quantum leap forward and put something out there into the world with my stamp on it…. I’m still not even sure what that might be like put into words but I am willing to give it a shot, if this really is something I have never seen or experienced before I have nowhere to turn to see what happens next. I just keep stepping, lets see what gets created! What if it is something that is so much greater than what I could ever imagine….?
I see people searching, waiting impatiently for what it is life has for them, it’s just around the corner, it’s just after the new year fireworks go off, its after I make that wish when I blow out the candles, it’s in a foreign land, it’s what someone else says it is – WHAT IF WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR IS YOU? And it turns out you have been there all along and just ignoring you the whole time hoping for something greater.
WHAT IF THAT GREATER IS YOU? So what is it that is uniquely you that you have not been willing to acknowledge? It’s insane to think that we have something so different that might be a gift to you and to others, that makes people laugh, that brightens their day and yours and just makes life a whole less stressful and less complicated. This world is insane to tell us any different - that we must look a certain way, think a certain way, act a certain way and BE a certain way.
So I ask are you willing to be INSANELY YOU? That ridiculousness, that brilliance that you have been hiding from the world, are you willing to explore what makes you come alive?