I always knew I was going to create something different, something never seen before, something new and I never succumbed to the normal sense of creation looking a particular way though I regularly went into conflict with it. What people thought creation was, was so wonky in my world! I actually thought I was not a creative person because I did not do conventional creation. I knew I was different but also resisted it dynamically, I did not like to stand out.
I would hear of peoples successes, what they were great at, starting to gain an income from new ventures and felt I was standing still not doing a whole lot. I could do what they were doing but there was something else calling my name and it was irresistible. Something so undefinable, I wished it was just right in front of me in neon lights so at least I knew what to do……
The more and more I listened to people talk about themselves and their lives I dipped in and out of how pathetic I was and then I would ask if I chose what other people were choosing for themselves for me? And I got a no. So for what reason would I choose to put myself down because I have not chosen what other people chose? For what reason would I dismiss what I always knew - that I was undefinably different? Not more, not less, just different and passionate about it too.
Possibilities had come up where I started to realise I could actually be a contribution to the creation of something different. I had ideas that were never thought of before that seemed so simple to me. So every day I would pay attention to the ease of breathing and ask what if being me was as easy as breathing? Well what would happen if we stopped breathing...............
What if creation is as easy as breathing? Do you have to spend the day constantly thinking about inhaling and exhaling and it being such an effort or do you just breathe and continue about your day? Do you think about how to time out your breaths, what the next breath will look like, where you will take it and so on...... Yet I chose to beat myself up about what I was not doing that I was BEING all along, that was a cute choice!
What if I could never make a mistake? This is quiet uncharted territory for me. I have no plan, I have no path, it is literally putting one foot in front of the other and play with all that comes my way. Its far more exhilarating than knowing the end result.
My question I ask everyday is who am I today and what grand and glorious adventures can I have?
DO YOU DARE TO ASK?