Its mad isn’t it? ……Everything!
Everything has a touch of crazy about it. Once I stopped being that carefree kid and gradually began to live in the insanity of this world it was like I had landed from outer space. Have you ever just stood there, looked at the world and asked yourself what the hell is going on? It was all just too weird for you, but it had to be you that was the problem because everyone else was apparently doing just fine….Then you make that really cute decision their way is the way things are meant to be.
You think you should be doing this, look like that and behave a particular way. God forbid you deviated from the norm. Just to make things a little more humorous it was just impossible to meet the standards set by life, it was a constant struggle trying to get it all right. So what I did was I got very stressed out, I lived in constant anxiety and resistance. Nothing seemed to fit, this world didn’t fit with mine and I did not fit with this world. I was very introvert and shy and always felt inadequate and very controlled. As a matter of fact I controlled me, I kept as quiet as I could and stayed out of trouble as much as possible for fear of standing out.
Fear and anxiety…..not the most fun way to live.
What I know for sure is that I am not the only one. A lot of us feel alone, that we are too weird and keep that wonderful weirdness a secret and hidden from the world. When I started to allow myself to be more of that weird and wonderful me I got a lot happier. Being more of me did not have this massive destructive effect on the world. The bonus was I became less stressed, I chose a lot more fun and my fun certainly did not look like other peoples fun.
It can be hard to find “you” at times as we have an idea of what fun looks like, what success looks like, what being a good person looks like. So when faced with choosing for you we can get a little bit caught up in the ideals of what things are meant to look like and compare ourselves to that. I am rapidly becoming aware that it just does not work for me. That I can make a completely different choice to what we know is normal and it be okay, that no one was going to get hurt in the process of choosing for me.
Are you ready and willing to walk your own path and change your world? And who knows maybe even be the inspiration for others to choose for themselves too! What might that be like?
The ease I have with the peace of living, people can find quiet tricky. Yet I would look at successful, wealthy or popular people that seemed to have a life and think I was the failure. As time passed I realised that what I was actually good at being something not many people found easy to be. That particular thing does not fit into this realities standards of having a successful life. Yet people go out into the world searching for this inner peace. I adore the simple things in life and I no longer chase happiness as choosing happiness is totally down to me and what I choose in this moment. Happiness and joy is in the present moment not the future. The future will always be ahead of you.
For me there is a lot of insanity in the world, the rules and standards of this reality can be totally insane to me, it definitely did not increase my happiness and love for myself.
As a child I knew this world was a beautiful place to be, as I got older I just could not see it anymore. After spending many years feeling grossly uncomfortable not fitting in I am now choosing what I know is true for me. It might not fit the social norm, I might see things so different to what the studies say but I am prepared to go seek what is true for me, to create a better world for myself and who knows a better world all around!
Are you willing to be Insanely You? Join me in adventures of being! There is a whole new amazing world out there to explore…. It might require breaking some rules!