NEVER GIVE UP
NEVER GIVE IN
Those 3 lines can keep you going, sometimes you are not sure why the hell you are bothering. Everything you know to be true is literally just yours alone and everyone else seems to be doing great things. They appear to be pursing their hopes and dreams, creating whatever it is they desire as their life. The one thing I have noticed is what a total and utter lie that was…… a lot of their choices were loaded with judgement and they were dying inside.
Nothing worked for me, not even pretending. I do fitting in so badly I just gave up. I went to the beat of my own drum, sometimes that beat lost rhythm as what I was choosing did not seem to be what everyone else was and what was the value in that? How do I create more when its just me on my own? I laugh at that now, as that the very thing that got me to where I am now.
I did not buy the lies though they did piss me off. What I was seeing was not what I desired in the world. I did not desire pretend, hope, should, rules and results as they would be the very things that would stunt something far greater in the world. I saw people despise each other but pretend to adore each other as they felted they needed each other and there I was out in the cold alone. Clearly going it alone was viewed as a weakness, though it left me with a lot of questions about what could be created. I could not resist exploring it. I just knew any other way really was not going to work for me. I would be on the same merry-go-round as everyone else trying to figure it all out.
I was ostracised, criticised and ridiculed – what I was doing made no sense so it had to be wrong. Sticking to what I knew what true for me created a lot of things very fast in a very illogical fashion, I could not give you the how to other than my tenacity for change in the world, my knowing that there was something far greater than what I was seeing and my willingness to lose it all and go it alone….. Ultimately it was my willingness to trust me.
I just kept choosing even when it was getting tough, when I really was not sure, while everyone else was playing a different game that I really didn’t work for me.
Then one day it changed, all I can say is consciousness will always prevail in the end. When you choose from the space of consciousness tenaciously things change – as if by magic! Situations change, people change, money changes I could go on and on. Those moments of discomfort when you get a bit tired and wonder whats next about everything ,THAT is the very moment you tenaciously choose whats true for you. That is the very moment you trust you apologetically, even if there are whispers of doubt and uncertainty. All of a sudden doors open leaving people wondering how the hell did you do that – they will look for the linearity and logic in it.
There has have been questions about how I have thusfar created my life and so fast and so effortless – I will tell you I now know there is no one greater than me, no one knows whats true for me more than me and I do not need words I just choose it and life shows up far greater than you can imagined. I do not desire to make people comfortable by defining it.
So never give up, when you feel that all this is getting too hard, you are getting tired and you have no idea what it will look like.
Never give in when others are doing it differently, when it looks like you are getting no where and everyone else seems to have results – that’s a lie!
Never quit on what you know is true for you, on what it is you would like to create in the world.
Never quit on you.