I grew tired of the lies the nonsense, the insanity, the nastiness, the force of what was going on around me and ultimately the confusion a lot of us swim in trying to find the shore. I ached, my body screamed. None of us truly knew how to “BE”. We were all making this terrible attempt to fit in – following all the shoulds to make sure we were gonna be okay.
It makes me laugh, I knew it was a lie but I still tried to obey it. The truth is we can find greater possibilities a lot scarier than the numbness of existence. That we find being vulnerable in this reality searingly painful, exposed and all the while miserably existing and pretending to be happy a lot more comfortable. Its like a very confusing merry-go-round of knowing and choosing not to know, of choosing not to choose, of laughing out loud with joy that is actually really was a cry for help filled with confusion. Its all smoke and mirrors, we are more than fooling the world, we are ultimately fooling ourselves.
Bursting with joy can be many things, it can be a hop, skip and a jump, it can be a cheeky smile, a glint in your eye, it can be the intoxication of the beauty of the earth, so wild and free it echos through the universe. Bursting can be a POP, an explosion and it can be simply the freedom you allow yourself to fully be whatever it is you choose, without judgement.
And yes, a smile can scare people as much as a thundering roar, it’s the intensity of being you is what they are sensing. A kind word or a hug filled with gratitude can disturb the most comfortable. And we hold this kindness back because it might upset or disturb people.
Look at this world, it longs for YOU. It longs for your kindness, it longs for your peace, it longs for your joy and it is only ever a choice away if we grant ourselves the freedom we always had available to us and surrender to our greatness.
Please stop hiding and holding back and keeping secret your beauty. You do not have to go around scaring everyone with your happiness, dragging them along on your journey. You only have to give yourself permission to be you, beyond judgement, with that quiet peace of being in your world you can actually change the world.
Go have fun, BE YOU, the world needs you!